..you'll never know what will happen to you next... don't make the way of your life hard for yourself in order that you try to make it suitable for your thoughts, feelings and wishes.
don't let yourself being pulled down this way. walk it nose-up and straight ahead. don't try to make things different or regressive. there's no use in that. maybe there'll come a time when EVERYTHING GOES THE WAY YOU WANT it to go.
You'll never know it anyway, so stop thinking about it so much. You shouldn't spend so much of your heart in things which are not worth it! But if you think about it, smile and tell yourself, "oh my god, it's beautiful, the way I feel and it's wonderful.."!!! Don't you worry so much!! Life is much more than this!